REVIEW- Unforgettable events in life
Heartbreak, new jobs, convocation, sadness, happiness,loosing friend and making new friends all in one month. The month of August or bulan merdeka.
It has been a while. Hmm, I guess its been more than a month since my last update in this blog. One thing for sure, im way too lazy to write things that had happened to me for the past month. August has been a "marathon" in my life. And i can say, the unforgettable month in this year.
Last month I saw myself having really a hard time to focus into things that I should put in priority over other things.My first day in August start of with a tragedy or should i say an incident that i would not forget for the rest of my life. Only Allah knows what’s exactly happening in that particular night. Loosing the person that u love is aint easy, especially when u’ve just started a new life, a new beginning and when u already learn how to let go of the past. I had major problems in letting go of my "past". I bet my two buddies would know about this (Aziah N Ida, thank u guys for always stick with me despite the fact that Im way too stubborn sometimes:)
I guess Allah tried to prove something to me and maybe Allah tried me in order for me to realise that there is someone out there who loved me for me. It wasnt meant to be or to happen. But ive learnt a lot from it. I met few wonderful people that i could never imagine before.
August was also the month where I started my new job in the banking industry. Its really tough that i couldnt cope with it. Its not the pressure or working late hours. I couldnt cope and learn as fast as they required for me to come up with a financial analysis. Well,its aint easy especially for those who doesnt like numbers and calculation like me..:) But i survived in the sense that i managed to write a few already.
August was also the convocation month. Geez, i guess ive waited so long that i didnt feel that much "thrill" on that day. Plus, with the tudung problems. I dont want to talk about it. I hate it. But i know my parent was so happy on that particular day. I was happy to see all my buddies after almost a year leaving uni days. I miss them so much. It feels nice to be back in campus. Its like seeing urself back in your first day in the campus.All those memories would always remain in my heart.
August was also the month that ive got an offer to be corporate legal secretariat executive in one of the semigovt. bodies here in Kuching. Well, i wish i had the offer earlier when Im still teaching.At least Im not in the dillema at the moment whether to accept and to resign or to reject the offer. But someone told me i should see it as a package and I bet its true. Money cant buy job satisfaction. So who cares whether the pay is lesser as long as Im happy. Ive noticed and people around me noticed that Im not that happy with my current job compared to teaching last time(especially mom and dad)
Well I dont know how to decide. Im still thinking but perhaps what that someone said is true. I have already the answer for it. its just that im too scared to hurt other people’s heart. those who have trusted u and put high hopes towards you. Maybe Im scared. But I really2 looking forward to the new job. It would be interesting/ LA and becoming Company Secretary at the same time. Hmm..new things to learn but I can see myself somewhere in 5 years time. I believe i can get through this.
Im sooo thankful that at least all these thing would make me busy so i wouldnt think much of those unhappy things that happened. Ramadhan is coming soon. Cant wait to be in Ramadhan again.. I find peace in Ramadhan and lot of blessings in it.
I dont know when im going to update my blog again. After Raya maybe.. hehehehe:)
